May 4, 2011

• insomnia.

  I made the mistake of drinking milk tea late in the day today and now I'm up at 3:05 am. There goes my ambition of normalizing my schedule. 

  In unrelated news, I turned down a possible job that in many ways seemed perfectly timed and perfect for my needs. There's a part of me that intensely regrets giving this offer up.  It's the type of job that the 20 year old me would have been mad at my present self for giving up.  It's also something that would be so easy for me to accept.  And yet.  And yet.  I had to say no for now because as much as I prayed and considered it, all I could see was saying yes would be just me taking the easy way out again (though to most people I think it would be the harder option).  So. I still sail adrift. But, there's a part of me that is pretty happy to know that I'm no longer taking the path that meets my immediate needs by the path of least resistance. Next step find a job -- get started on that hard path.

   

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  Separately. I'm finding WNYC's Radiolab show to be utterly delightful.

   

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